Daring to Be

Unlike most people, I’ve opted for staying in tonight. I’ve had invites for various parties but I decided to finally acknowledge that NYE is usually a disappointment ending with me not-so-patiently waiting for a cab to take me home. So staying home it is. But I have a glass of wine, good food about to be put in the oven, and some company so it isn’t that bad.

Happy New Year, everyone! May your night be more eventful than my own!

My internship that is. Yesterday was the last day of school before Christmas holidays. I was spoiled by my class with lots of hugs. I also got a ton of Christmas gifts, the most notable being the book my cooperating teacher put together for me. On the top of each page is typed “You are a great teacher because _________.” She filled in the blank with what each student said and then they drew me a picture. Very cute. I would have cried if I hadn’t already planned on coming back to visit in 2008.

My first order of business now that internship is over was to clean my room. Not that I haven’t cleaned it in the past four months. Just that was only surface cleaning. So it was time for a good, thorough clean! Reorganized my closet, dusted everything, tossed away an incredible amount of junk. I head home to Carrot River for four days tomorrow, which is when I will relax, read books, and watch movies. When I get back, time to get organized; I have a massive tower of teaching resources I need to sort.

There’s a brief update of what has been going on in my little corner of the world.

So I changed my mind again. Don’t go looking for a new blog. I’m sticking with this one, unless by some miracle one of you knows how to export my entries?

I’m even keeping my archives, having remembered I went through them with a fine toothed comb to make sure there wasn’t anything I didn’t want to be sharing in them.

That’s all, really. Where is everybody?

9 school days left of my internship.

My co-op gave me my final evaluation to proof read and I actually felt flattered after reading it, so that’s a good sign and definitely not worth me working myself in a tizzy of worry over it. I guess I just am harder on myself than necessary.

I finished full time teaching on Friday. Now for the next few days I just teach afternoons and then eventually not at all. I keep walking around repeating how crazy I think it is that my internship is over. I’ve passed. All that’s left between me and my Education degree is 4 months of classes, not a big concern to me at all since I’ve already passed 4 years of classes, another 4 months won’t kill me.

Now, what to do after my degree is what troubles me…

Yet another cute kindergarten story…

Yesterday afternoon my coop and I had a conference downtown so we had a sub in. Today our EA told me that while we were away B., a little girl in my class who is positively adorable (well I guess all my students are… ), was busy coloring but all of sudden quit coloring, looked up and said “I love Miss. G!”

Too funny because I wasn’t even there to do anything to warrant her announcing that she loves me!

Ack I love this job.

I’m not going to stop blogging.

Just keep your eyes out for a complete new blog (new address, no archives) coming your way in 2008.

Blogging isn’t important to me anymore.

I really don’t know what else to say?

I guess I feel like I’ve figured out what is important to me, and writing in a public journal didn’t make it on the list. Time to move back to a private, paper journal I think.

Or maybe I just need an extended break?

Who knows really?

… for I have seen yesterday and I love today. (William Allen White)

Not only has internship taught me a lot in regards to my identity as a teacher, but it also has really helped me think about what I want for the rest of my life and begin to weigh my options. To be honest, I have never looked far beyond getting my degree. That was always my plan, to get my degree and take it from there. Well, now I’m only five months away from attaining my goal. Meaning, it’s time to think about the rest of my life!

I definitely don’t have the answers. But I do know I have grown up quite a bit these last few months. For the longest time I wanted to write about my options on here, and get people’s opinions. I don’t feel that way anymore. Nobody can know what is important to me quite like I do.

I guess what I’m trying to get across here is that I don’t have the rest of my life figured out. But for once I feel like that’s okay. Whatever choices I make, I’m making them on my own and I’ll be fine.

I am finally trusting myself completely.

It’s wonderful.

Internship will be over in exactly one month from today. Which is crazy to say the least.

I would write more about how it has been going, but I’m sick. Though I felt fine all day, I came home and was physically ill. Not fun. The little germ factories known as children have struck again! They’re lucky they’re so cute. I spent all evening on the couch, in and out of sleep, and am feeling okay. I think I caught a very weak strain of the flu bug, fingers crossed at least. Tomorrow is a long day, Activity Conferences in the early evening followed by going to the Stars concert that night. Friday brings Activity Conferences in the morning and then supper and Swan Lake that night. So yes, I hope I feel better tomorrow because I would be really unhappy if I had to miss one or both of the events I’ve been looking forward to since September!

Time to crawl back onto the couch. This short entry had me sitting up too long.