April 4, 2005
Tell me why I don’t like Mondays.
I want to shoot the whole day down.
I’ve decided that in order to overcome my amazing hatred towards Mondays, every Monday morning I shall sing “I Hate Mondays” at the top of my lungs while dancing around in my underwear. It’ll become a quirky little ritual I’ll only do on Mondays and the incredible silliness about it will make the day bearable. Wouldn’t that be nice!
I know everyone wants to hear about how my weekend went. For starters, Tam and I weren’t able to settle on one wine. We started with the Merlot, but it wasn’t long until we were in the white wine and then last but not least the White Zinfandel. Somewhere between the white wine and White Zinfandel, my date arrived. Naturally I was quite fuzzy by that point, so meeting went off without a hitch! Oh, how I love thee liquid courage. No, I am not an alcoholic nor do I need alcohol to have fun. However, in this odd situation, it definitely helped. I’m not being impulsive about anything. Yes, I know that often I lament about single life and how much it can suck. But the pros definitely outweigh the cons and I spend more time happy in my single state than I do crying about it. I don’t want to give it up for just anyone, and meeting someone once doesn’t really tell me whether or not I should give it up. At least, I don’t think so. Or maybe I haven’t changed much from the “love ‘em and leave ‘em” Brea I was in high school.
Baby I want scary kisses
I want hits and I want misses
I want hell and I want bliss - and all that soars between it
And if you give me safety in a short time I’ll be driven crazy
I would rather run and fall, than take no chance at allNothing sums up how I feel better than “Scary Kisses” by Voice of the Beehive. Further in the song it says “I would rather sit here by myself than settle down with someone safe and sound.” Sometimes I wonder if that’s how I am… like that cheesy country song I can’t help but love that goes “I don’t want a man I can live with, I want a man that I can’t live without.”
I am starting to think that perhaps I have some issues regarding relationships, but not only can I not pinpoint what they are but I also have no idea what to do to fix them.
April 4th, 2005 at 7:51 pm
I’m happy to hear it went well. And never settle for anything less, you deserve the absolute best! (That seemed a little lame cuz it rhymed) but you get the point
April 4th, 2005 at 8:02 pm
hay brea….
Glad you had fun this weekend. I think we are all messed up to some extent, especially when it comes to relationships.. duhn duhn duhnnn. Don’t worry it’ll end up happening when you are least expecting it. Look at me and steph, we both thought of eachother as weekend flings. *lol* look at us now. yikes! okay I’m talkin to you on msn and it’s my turn to type something so ttyl.
mike
April 4th, 2005 at 8:51 pm
hrm spelling errors…anyways, it looks like you have the right attitude about it, just live it up and eventually the right person will come around.
April 4th, 2005 at 9:57 pm
True love cannot be found where it does not exist. Nor can it be hidden where it does.
Remember that Brea. Also remember all my relationship issues I’ve come to you with! Even when you’re happily in a relationship, there are still issues! Human nature.
Hang in there, see how everything unfolds. No matter what, who, or when - it will be fabulous - like you!
April 5th, 2005 at 2:38 pm
Believe it or not, Brea, you’re not the only one who wants scary kisses. It’s just a matter of running into that other person. Till then, I’m glad you take being single with such an upbeat attitude that is almost inspirational. You’re doing good, but you don’t need to hear that from us.
You gotta look out for yourself. You know the score when you adore yourself. When you’re in danger you can count on me to shine.
April 6th, 2005 at 8:08 am
Since we talked in person yesterday I’ll comment on something else. Isn’t it funny how people interpret lyrics differently? The line “and all that soars between it” has always sounded to me like “in all its sultriness”… I’ve sung it that way for years!!!!
April 6th, 2005 at 9:44 am
More than anything I want to support your respect for a good ol’ Boomtown Rats tune.
If I’m not mistaking, you have the Strange Little Girls album by Tori Amos…
She has a haunting version on there too as I’m sure you are well aware of. Anyway, I have to go finish getting ready for school.
Moral of the story is:
Red wine is always better!
Cheers.