August 3, 2005
Horrible, horrible news…
Never before in my life has anyone close to me died. I had two grandparents die when I was 11, but I was so young and it just didn’t effect me. I had the mindset that that is what happened when you were old.
This morning Mom woke me up with horrible news. My 20 year-old cousin Stefan passed away in a car accident last night.
I’ve never before seen my Mom cry.
I’m still shocked, disbelieving…
I remember last summer, for his 19th birthday. We both lived in Regina and worked that day. He had no plans for his birthday, and I’m a big “you should make a big deal about your birthday” person. So I baked him a cake, and filled my apartment with balloons. He came over, we had cake, and then I took him for supper at Earl’s. Then, because he was finally legal age I insisted he buy booze and we went back to my place and watched a movie. A few days later my Aunt Kathy called and thanked me, saying Stefan said that was his best birthday in a long time.
He was a genuinely nice, good kid. I just simply cannot believe he’s gone for good.
Mom and I are headed to Nipawin today. I’m not sure when we’ll be back.
August 3rd, 2005 at 1:09 pm
OMG, I’m so sorry. BIG HUGS for you & your mom. Let me know if you need anything, ok?
August 3rd, 2005 at 9:09 pm
Wow.. Brea… thats horrible news. My deepest condolences to you and your family. Jessica
August 4th, 2005 at 9:09 pm
It’s unfortunate that I check back on your blog at such a time. As I’m sure you already know, death is never an easy thing to deal with, especially when it hits so close. I’m sorry that I can’t do anything for you, save for give you some words of comfort from a heart that, like yours, has also been scarred with death.
Death, although sad and often times tragic, is also good. Your aunts and uncles, and especially your parents, are probably feeling quite vunerable and helpless, certainly more protective of their children. Your family can find strength with each other. Encourage and support each other. Remember and celebrate the life he lived. I am sure that his soul will strengthen all of you from heaven. I know you know all of this already, but sometimes hearing it from someone else helps.
“And I’m sure the view from heaven beats the hell out of mine here. And if we all believe in heaven, maybe we’ll make it through one more year down here.”
August 5th, 2005 at 4:58 pm
*hugs* I’m so sorry.