Daring to Be » 2007 » November

… for I have seen yesterday and I love today. (William Allen White)

Not only has internship taught me a lot in regards to my identity as a teacher, but it also has really helped me think about what I want for the rest of my life and begin to weigh my options. To be honest, I have never looked far beyond getting my degree. That was always my plan, to get my degree and take it from there. Well, now I’m only five months away from attaining my goal. Meaning, it’s time to think about the rest of my life!

I definitely don’t have the answers. But I do know I have grown up quite a bit these last few months. For the longest time I wanted to write about my options on here, and get people’s opinions. I don’t feel that way anymore. Nobody can know what is important to me quite like I do.

I guess what I’m trying to get across here is that I don’t have the rest of my life figured out. But for once I feel like that’s okay. Whatever choices I make, I’m making them on my own and I’ll be fine.

I am finally trusting myself completely.

It’s wonderful.

Internship will be over in exactly one month from today. Which is crazy to say the least.

I would write more about how it has been going, but I’m sick. Though I felt fine all day, I came home and was physically ill. Not fun. The little germ factories known as children have struck again! They’re lucky they’re so cute. I spent all evening on the couch, in and out of sleep, and am feeling okay. I think I caught a very weak strain of the flu bug, fingers crossed at least. Tomorrow is a long day, Activity Conferences in the early evening followed by going to the Stars concert that night. Friday brings Activity Conferences in the morning and then supper and Swan Lake that night. So yes, I hope I feel better tomorrow because I would be really unhappy if I had to miss one or both of the events I’ve been looking forward to since September!

Time to crawl back onto the couch. This short entry had me sitting up too long.

It really annoys me that a good portion of the time I don’t have a clue what I want from life.

It also annoys me that sometimes I actually wish someone would make my decisions for me! (What does that say about myself and being insecure in my choices!?)

Ugh.

I have found over the last few years that I really enjoy my mornings. I have definitely become the type of person who prefers “early to bed, early to rise”. This worked out great when I started my internship, because my cooperating teacher is the same way. She prefers arriving at school in the morning around 7:45 AM and then she can leave quite quickly after school. But beyond that, today is a great example of why I love being a morning person.

Today I woke up at 8 AM (2 hours later than when I wake up during the week, so 8 AM is sleeping in to me, in fact I felt guilty for sleeping in so late!) By noon I had eaten breakfast, cleaned the upstairs washroom, tidied and vacuumed my room, vacuumed the front room, showered and dressed for the day, as well as walked down Broadway window shopping with my mom and sister including a stop at Calories for crème brûlée and coffee!

I remember thinking my grandma and my mom were crazy for being the type to be up at 6 AM or even earlier, but now see the benefits and do not doubt I will increasingly become more of a morning person as time goes on!