It really annoys me that a good portion of the time I don’t have a clue what I want from life.
It also annoys me that sometimes I actually wish someone would make my decisions for me! (What does that say about myself and being insecure in my choices!?)
Ugh.
I have found over the last few years that I really enjoy my mornings. I have definitely become the type of person who prefers “early to bed, early to rise”. This worked out great when I started my internship, because my cooperating teacher is the same way. She prefers arriving at school in the morning around 7:45 AM and then she can leave quite quickly after school. But beyond that, today is a great example of why I love being a morning person.
Today I woke up at 8 AM (2 hours later than when I wake up during the week, so 8 AM is sleeping in to me, in fact I felt guilty for sleeping in so late!) By noon I had eaten breakfast, cleaned the upstairs washroom, tidied and vacuumed my room, vacuumed the front room, showered and dressed for the day, as well as walked down Broadway window shopping with my mom and sister including a stop at Calories for crème brûlée and coffee!
I remember thinking my grandma and my mom were crazy for being the type to be up at 6 AM or even earlier, but now see the benefits and do not doubt I will increasingly become more of a morning person as time goes on!
I am in an incredibly grouchy mood right now, with no real concrete reason to be.
Today was my last internship inservice. My co-op and I went through my mid-term evaluation and I just found it to be really draining. Nine pages of statements that we discussed whether or not I had met, and if not, my plan for improvement. Now don’t get me wrong, I understand the importance of doing it and luckily enough, I wasn’t surprised with anything we talked about but all the same it was exhausting going through my internship thus far with such a fine toothed comb. We finished it at 2 PM, I came home and crashed until 4 PM! Which in turn made me feel guilty, because it was a beautiful day today and Winston came and sat on my chest, staring me down like “Aren’t you taking me for a walk?” He finally gave up, let out a huge sigh, and had a nap with me.
I also chaired the ESS meeting tonight, which is always fun. (Please note the sarcasm.) I just feel like I am the worst chairperson ever sometimes!
So now I plan on doing nothing but watching The Hills, even though I have assignments to mark and things to plan. But I don’t care, not at this moment, I just need to relax a bit.
Not much new except that internship is still coming along great. I’m over half done already!
Funny story to share that shows what a newbie teacher I am. Yesterday I played Jeopardy with the grade 6 class I teach as a review for Monday’s exam. What did I bring for treats?
Yes. Though the school I am at is not a peanut free zone, there are a few students who do have peanut allergies and one happens to be in this class. As for gum, well, were you ever allowed gum in elementary school?
Anyway it was funny, I had a good laugh at myself. I ended up still giving them gum since it was the last class of the day. And that’s my newbie teacher story… not thinking and bringing peanuts and gum as a treat! (Which might only be funny to exactly two people: myself and Megan!)
I’m simply too busy to blog and I refuse to apologize for that because I’m enjoying every last second of it.
My life revolves around planning lessons and researching different options of what I can do and where I can go after graduating.
I really don’t have time for much else.
Don’t worry though. I am taking some time for myself (example: I am rereading “The Alchemist” by Paulo Coelho), I just don’t spend that time blogging. I do have some issues that I will blog about eventually, so stay tuned.
Yes, I’m sitting at home on a Saturday night. It looks like I’ll be heading to Carrot River for Thanksgiving next weekend, and considering I start half time teaching the following week I figured it was in my best interest to have a low key weekend of planning.
I have a few little things to update about.
As much as I love teaching, I really am starting to realize I need to do a better job of making time for myself. I feel like I don’t talk about anything but internship. Which, granted, I come home everyday with a fresh batch of entertaining stories but all the same I have to make more effort to remember I am not just Miss. Gentner the interning teacher but also Breanne, the 24 year old trying to figure life and love out.
This is my third week of being sick. Not cool. Started with a sore throat. That went away and was replaced last week by congestion. Now, week three, the congestion has mostly gone away but now I have this awful tickle in my throat that has me constantly coughing. This tickle stops me when I’m talking and the cough keeps me up at night. Considering I hardly ever get sick (knock on wood), I’m not the most pleased person on the face of the planet.
Oh well, I guess I should just be glad I don’t feel tired and achy.
In other news, I had a great time with Rosey this past weekend! I wish it was this weekend she was coming, because so far all I have to look forward to is a whole lot of planning. Which, don’t get me wrong I actually quite enjoy planning lessons, but after interning 5 days a week 8 AM-4 PM… I’m just sort of ready to take a break by the weekend.
My college supervisor came by to watch me teach yesterday. I was so nervous. I did a color mixing lesson and was sort of worried it would crash and burn on me. Luckily, however, it went great! Seriously! I also received really positive feedback from my supervisor, like way better than I could ever have imagined. So, despite being just a little bit sick for almost three full weeks, life is grand. 
I’m having an “off” day. Not just regarding my internship, though today was definitely not one of my better teaching days, but a day in which I feel like I’m a failure at life in general.
Not a very nice feeling at all. But to cheer me up, tomorrow is Friday, I teach two fairly easy lessons that I hopefully don’t suck as terribly as I did today at (I’m teaching the color blue and gym class using balloons.) Also to cheer me up is the fact that I’m having my significant other come visit me tomorrow for the weekend! And, no, before you ask, I’m not talking about a date. I’m talking about Roseanne, and I call her my significant other because honestly? She’s held a position of higher significance than any guy I’ve ever dated! Yay for best friends!
You know the little girl that had the world’s worst temper tantrum on Friday (see previous entry) in which she hated me with a fury I didn’t think kindergartner children were capable of? Well, today she came in from recess, wrapped her arms around my legs, looked up at me and said “I love you, Miss. G!”
Let’s say it together… “Awwww!”
Fun times!
I know I was bound to have to witness all of the following, being in a kindergarten class and all, I just don’t understand why all three had to happen in the last half hour of school on a Friday.
I survived though, and I’m still lovin’ teaching.
